10.10.10 what a nice day.....but this "early" morning seems like everyone was drunk...something unhappy happened again....some of them start to hug each others, some of them was quarreling...I was just keep quite sitting on the room, I saw a so call force hug happen, I was only asking myself a question-( who I'm to her, a close friend? a friend? or a stranger?)nope... nothing come to my mind...I think you have someone can lie on, rely on~~I really feel happy about it, but another way I understand myself still not able to fully let go on you, too many memory flash through my mind when i was free....and to another dude, what you wish to have, I really try my best to keep the environment well, what you like it, I always let you to have it, is that still not enough to you?? what left to me? a loneliness or moodiness ? sometimes, may be all of us should learn stand on others side to think.....

Fresher

Finally come to Sheffield ady.....but i think it take time for me to settle down here....there is no more protection from the parents, anything done have to bare with the responsible, indirectly, It's a freedom for me. First come to here, I wasn't really use to the drinking practice, and I spend quite a lot $$ to building up a comfort environment for myself....Sometime, the surrounding was so quiet, and the loneliness feeling come close. Luckily I'm able to on9, but here is late Malaysia time for 7 hours( no people chat with)....oh yea...I miss to drive the car going around to find nice food in Malaysia....at here, at least 2 hours walking a day, it really good in exercise rite??hah!!so far I'm quite loss with what I actually asking for, may be should just focus on getting a good result rather than do nothing. update soon!!

Secret!!

Today finally come out a full-stop for the stressful and busy lifestyle, but my mood doesn't feel any relieve..or may be I still couldn't settle down. Since young I was use to get what I wish to have, So this lead me turn to be stubborn and sometime did or said something...Is really sorry if it hurt u, I really doesn't mean it~~I apologizes to u here cause I really worry this will be reject...I do care every single friendship, all the "ship" is too importance for me..If the gap occurs, I would use all my strength to minimize it, If there is a crack, I would use all my time to fix it...I'm not sure will you still visit to this page, but the point is "our friendship is just like a sin graph, it always up and down, but it will never end". I really doesn't enjoy the day without your caring...no matter what I still care about u,this is hard to change!!If possible give me a hand,let fix the "ship" 2gether..XD

ihopeyouknow

Please stand right in front of me, Hug me, and place your ear close to my chest...Herm~~Can u hear the heart beating??There is too complicated cant describe by words, listen to the heart, feel it and You will understand it...Sumtime What u hear/see not really right, but your feeling will never wrong!!

Forget about it ~~!!something is gone then it will never come back again...."Do it now or never"-at the right time, do a right decision could change anything.Some of the "special" friendship would always follow a sin graph pattern, start from a 0 to a pick point, then it fall the max negative value and lastly back to the original value-0...Time might fix things better, but at the same time might turn worst....After 2 years time, I think it we are back to origin, I felt nothing together with you, is a sign of successful, whether will it have another cycle is really depends on fate. A nice person like you is always deserve to better guy who really appreciate you....Those who are doesn't know how to appreciate your kindness is always their loss, but never because of them hurt anyone who care of you~~!!TC.

When you know the answer, never ask why again~~this will only show how contradict you are!!Too many couple break up because having different thought...if really a Mars and Venus couple....then let go may be is the most suitable way to solve. Al lot couple has forgotten the main purpose of being together - both party feel they are comfort happy to stay their another. when a force is applied, there will be another opposite force with the same magnitude produce. Only those who follow the water flow are able to survive!!

The X Factor 2009 - Combined Effort - Auditions 3 (itv.com/xfactor)

傻瓜的故事

为了创造同病相怜的情景，一个傻瓜让自己跌倒受伤，希望自己苏醒后，可以陪伴着自己心爱的人~~但他却忽略了好景不常有，那痛的快乐只是短暂的。傻瓜慢慢的放下自己的执著，对待事物的热诚，开始以包容，接受来对抗心中对自己那不甘自甘堕落得行为。。傻瓜渐渐的付出所有，但却迟迟没有回复~~想清醒时，却终有千百个理由让他继续付出~~今天，残酷事实让他清醒，自己心爱的人在他昏迷时，已经离开~~他从来就没有出现在她的心里。。他是她心中的一粒沙，是处都是，但相反的，她是傻瓜的所有。。如果一厢情愿是傻瓜，那么玩弄他人是什么？？正在疗伤的傻瓜虽然存有一丝一丝的思念，但终于体会了“你死你贱” 的游戏规则！！

Triangle love

Have you watch twilight saga eclipse?? herm...this movie trying to reflect something happen in the reality...So if you really experience that triangle relationship in real life's, you will totally fall with this movie. thumb up!! Love can be so complicated or simple and pure. when you falling in love with a guy, but after that you feel like you are more comfort with another guy..what will u do? Bella love Edward , In fact, she more comfort with Jacob and need him more then Edward. she turns greedy and wish 2 own 2 of them. Most of the people declare that she is a slut, because of her greediness, both parties get hurt - of course especially that 1 who never get her -worst~~physically and mentally get hurt~~1 combo wiehh!!. For me, nothing is on your control....so decide what is really important to you, never try to be a fish monger...Lastly, Mr Jocob~~hero of the movie~~!!

520

我~~~可以陪你去看星星，可以握着你的手追随日出以日落的出现，简单的问候却成为我的能量！！心病终需心药医，你是我的医生，也是伤害我的凶手！对着你，心里很复杂，不是语言能解释的。你的种种切切，不知道我是真的喜欢上了， 还是习惯了占有你，你在我身边，心理便有种莫名其妙的开心。。。老实说，认识你是幸福的，爱上你，是我的失责！！爱一个人，要学会放手，因为有人比你更需要她！！最后，我已520 作为思念你的句号。

I dunno~~~

Honestly, that was pain.....this time is really hurt~~it no longer the physical pain, it is hard to cure....who will be the angel accompany to my side until i recover...NO ONE!!I wont say that is unfair or what, at least i try my best to give it a try, I can guess out the outcome that u make, but the last thing I still able to do is just not to let you feel anything bad...This time, let the men to handle it.....You are not perfect, but for me u are mine everything!!Girl....dun feel anything negative, although u always say I'm the week week boy, but I'm strong enough to protect you~~!! I hate to be the character in the story, but may be time will let me accept the fact!!!I'm always miss u..

no comment....see how does it goes!!

Get back the track of life

2day I felt so relieve, talk to u not even 5 min, u are already able to point out what the sickness and provide all the solution..You are so strong..."you are so easily get influence by atmosphere surrounding, people that u care fall, u feel the pain..Honestly, I think guy never get emo so frequently 1, but just trying to cover the reason behind, he rather to tell other he emo or give a lot irrelevant excuse, drive others around by creating another image"...siao~~no wonder others scare chatting with psychologist, because they will unintentionally telling you their "secret"..Emo really not fit to my life-style, seldom get emo de Tiong seng,keep on emo this year...Do u believe that..yes i I did!The emo section is dotted a full-stop here!!Friend, don't worry, I dun feel fear chatting with u!!....Anyways, thanks a lot....things come naturally, follow the flow of water is only way to survive...XD!!

The only thing I do-I miss u!!

Whole day stay at home- frequently visit to the Facebook check up whether any friends online...that was really a boring job, but I found something interesting that someone keep post on how he missing someone...Follow by his post, it seem like he is struggling about missing his partner. "without you, I felt so weird, do you willing to stay with me 4ever?" ,follow by " I'm willing to use my life to exchange with your smile" and lastly "I think I gonna crazy because of u"....There is a lot more, but these attracted me..Herm...actually same feeling here XP!! Today totally loss the concentration to study...I understand that ordinary and extraordinary just a little different, but it take time...the matter of time~~Probability I give myself too many excuse to escape the reality, too many constrain- the dignity, the consequences, and etc. Guys, any idea can help me make things goes better?

Reflection!!

Yesterday night was driving me crazy....too many things happened in one shot, I dun really know the best way to handle all this...yesterday my car get bang by a motorcycle in the bloody heavy jam Khesas highway. In such a bad atmosphere, I start thinking what really happened this semester...The group suddenly like split into 2 groups, the foot step is no longer the same, it almost of out beat already. Herm...may be sum1 will said that i think too much, but how to explain if others think the same thing? First of all, I would like to apologize about this few week I'm a little bit out of track, due to some personal reason, the weird thing is everyone tot I'm in the relationship, include my family. If really happen I dun mind, but really Nothing is happen!! The best way to conclude is the volcano erupted ...so guys...we are always the best group form...every1 is equally important...hopefully the friendship can tighten our relationship!!So now let stress together and fight to the end!!

This blog is explored, it loss it main purpose!! I cant write what ever I think of, people start to judge on my work...However, main concern is always worry about "YOU" are one of the reader!!

Yes...I'm damn Emo right now!!

I nt sure will u spend few min to read on this post, but do you know every of your movement has capture in my mind...you are so random, I would never get you...Intelligence is probability a source of causes painful and unahppy, cause I'm always have to stay clear...Yes..I know what Im thinking, I cant just let myself drunk and fall, why should I bother so much? moron and genius, which u prefer? Y cant u just keep your lie 4ever and let me feel better...my heart is injure again...U hurt me....u know that??but i will never blame on you...cause I miss you!!I will seat on the dark corner and make myself a wake from this ...no worries!!

黑色与白色之间会有灰色地带吗？我一向喜爱白色， 但黑色的出现后，让我难以选择！天啊~~满脑都是这两种颜色，白色让人感觉纯真和快乐；黑色却妖艳及兴奋！天使以恶魔的交战，受苦的会是人民-我！如果穿上白色衬衫使您毅力十足，百战百胜 ；黑色让你帅气鼎鼎，所有东西随手可得，您的选择是什么？？希望我能穿着白色战袍战到最后，我坚持相信白色会让我画出一片天空~~

How cum so many strangers leave their comments on my blog...Herm....this blog is hanging on the half dead condition. 2day was the first day of my holiday, finally its cum, but I dun feel any excitement, how should I utilize this time?? After a bloody stressful week, should I reward myself to sum trip or wat?? This segi office management is really sucky, have u attent an exam without having any lecture class and without any formula sheet provide....damn...yes...I had experience in Segi university college...Any how, hopefully it never be a obstruct to me..:P..the distance toward Sheffield university is a step nearer..but how about the merit scholarship? 10500 pound a year, 3 year = Honda civic + 25k = mazda 6....this equation looks to attactive lahh..haha!!I'm greedy ok!!it's late now..update soon!!nitesz!!XP~~

L.O.V.E Poison~~!!

"guy take vineger more frequent than girl",DO u agree with this statement??For my personal view, guy will never agree with it, for protecting their "dignity", but doesn't mean that its nt exist!!I'm lock in the square,which way to exit??I tried so hard nt to involve in any relationship thingy..oh please...dun mess up my life....GO away~~!!Right now, I just feel like stick together with my coursemates, and enjoy the studies!!To my dear coursemates, I appologise about being a emo freak sumtimes, and I'm keep quiet is because I worry I said sumthing I doesnt mean it,herm..thank for the understanding and caring~~!!(love, you, guy, so, much)<-----branket=infinity..still remember that!!wakaka!!


I like this pic so much~~~

勇往直前

感觉傻乎乎的，不知不觉只剩五个月了，英国留学到底会是什么样的体验呢。。。很期待！！最近生活有点颓废，我想忙忙碌碌的生活才会让我感到充实，但我要什么我也不是很清楚，还是跟大伙一起走。。。我看还是让你先帮我保管我的爱情这几个月吧~~我要的简单成了最复杂的东西，因为人类永远喜欢复杂化。。。你给的动力将成为我克服难关的毅力！！

After taken rich cholesterol and delicious food so many days,nw is time to taking good care of the nutrient we comsume.Since new year eve until 6th of the CNY,my stomach having a great non-stop party!!hahah~~!! 2morow Uni life is back,and its really a good opportunity for me burst toward my target and touch up myself.Sleeping at the hotel,wake for the breakfast,shopping,suntaning,swiming,spa,and of course "drinking"!!No rushing,just wait the time for meals,fabulous~~ but having this kind of life too long, high probability will turns to handicapped people...wahaha~~so,a short period is just nice!!In between this week holiday, I have really enjoyed and relax myself from all the unmanageable stuff...of course I have make up my mind WHAT I WANT!!New year-->new vision,new aim,new tactic, everything cum new~~At here,I wish everyone having a Roaring health and soaring wealth!!Happy Chinese New Year~~XD