10.10.10 what a nice day.....but this "early" morning seems like everyone was drunk...something unhappy happened again....some of them start to hug each others, some of them was quarreling...I was just keep quite sitting on the room, I saw a so call force hug happen, I was only asking myself a question-( who I'm to her, a close friend? a friend? or a stranger?)nope... nothing come to my mind...I think you have someone can lie on, rely on~~I really feel happy about it, but another way I understand myself still not able to fully let go on you, too many memory flash through my mind when i was free....and to another dude, what you wish to have, I really try my best to keep the environment well, what you like it, I always let you to have it, is that still not enough to you?? what left to me? a loneliness or moodiness ? sometimes, may be all of us should learn stand on others side to think.....

Fresher

Finally come to Sheffield ady.....but i think it take time for me to settle down here....there is no more protection from the parents, anything done have to bare with the responsible, indirectly, It's a freedom for me. First come to here, I wasn't really use to the drinking practice, and I spend quite a lot $$ to building up a comfort environment for myself....Sometime, the surrounding was so quiet, and the loneliness feeling come close. Luckily I'm able to on9, but here is late Malaysia time for 7 hours( no people chat with)....oh yea...I miss to drive the car going around to find nice food in Malaysia....at here, at least 2 hours walking a day, it really good in exercise rite??hah!!so far I'm quite loss with what I actually asking for, may be should just focus on getting a good result rather than do nothing. update soon!!