10.10.10 what a nice day.....but this "early" morning seems like everyone was drunk...something unhappy happened again....some of them start to hug each others, some of them was quarreling...I was just keep quite sitting on the room, I saw a so call force hug happen, I was only asking myself a question-( who I'm to her, a close friend? a friend? or a stranger?)nope... nothing come to my mind...I think you have someone can lie on, rely on~~I really feel happy about it, but another way I understand myself still not able to fully let go on you, too many memory flash through my mind when i was free....and to another dude, what you wish to have, I really try my best to keep the environment well, what you like it, I always let you to have it, is that still not enough to you?? what left to me? a loneliness or moodiness ? sometimes, may be all of us should learn stand on others side to think.....

Fresher

Finally come to Sheffield ady.....but i think it take time for me to settle down here....there is no more protection from the parents, anything done have to bare with the responsible, indirectly, It's a freedom for me. First come to here, I wasn't really use to the drinking practice, and I spend quite a lot $$ to building up a comfort environment for myself....Sometime, the surrounding was so quiet, and the loneliness feeling come close. Luckily I'm able to on9, but here is late Malaysia time for 7 hours( no people chat with)....oh yea...I miss to drive the car going around to find nice food in Malaysia....at here, at least 2 hours walking a day, it really good in exercise rite??hah!!so far I'm quite loss with what I actually asking for, may be should just focus on getting a good result rather than do nothing. update soon!!

Secret!!

Today finally come out a full-stop for the stressful and busy lifestyle, but my mood doesn't feel any relieve..or may be I still couldn't settle down. Since young I was use to get what I wish to have, So this lead me turn to be stubborn and sometime did or said something...Is really sorry if it hurt u, I really doesn't mean it~~I apologizes to u here cause I really worry this will be reject...I do care every single friendship, all the "ship" is too importance for me..If the gap occurs, I would use all my strength to minimize it, If there is a crack, I would use all my time to fix it...I'm not sure will you still visit to this page, but the point is "our friendship is just like a sin graph, it always up and down, but it will never end". I really doesn't enjoy the day without your caring...no matter what I still care about u,this is hard to change!!If possible give me a hand,let fix the "ship" 2gether..XD

ihopeyouknow

Please stand right in front of me, Hug me, and place your ear close to my chest...Herm~~Can u hear the heart beating??There is too complicated cant describe by words, listen to the heart, feel it and You will understand it...Sumtime What u hear/see not really right, but your feeling will never wrong!!

Forget about it ~~!!something is gone then it will never come back again...."Do it now or never"-at the right time, do a right decision could change anything.Some of the "special" friendship would always follow a sin graph pattern, start from a 0 to a pick point, then it fall the max negative value and lastly back to the original value-0...Time might fix things better, but at the same time might turn worst....After 2 years time, I think it we are back to origin, I felt nothing together with you, is a sign of successful, whether will it have another cycle is really depends on fate. A nice person like you is always deserve to better guy who really appreciate you....Those who are doesn't know how to appreciate your kindness is always their loss, but never because of them hurt anyone who care of you~~!!TC.

When you know the answer, never ask why again~~this will only show how contradict you are!!Too many couple break up because having different thought...if really a Mars and Venus couple....then let go may be is the most suitable way to solve. Al lot couple has forgotten the main purpose of being together - both party feel they are comfort happy to stay their another. when a force is applied, there will be another opposite force with the same magnitude produce. Only those who follow the water flow are able to survive!!

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