A hand make no noise

Sometime the person u like might not suitable for you. Fate is something miracle, sometime the person u quarrel with, fight with , highly possibility turns to be your partner. There is no ending for the love story. When the time you get whoever you wish, it come to the new chapter. How does the story goes is really depend how both of you manage it, we are the writer!!!Please give me some indication what to do next~~~

最后还是选着对着没有反应的部落格来哭诉。。。其实早就知道自己超多“奇怪” 的脾气，有时自己也受不了，何况是别人呐！！我怕寂寞，我怕孤单，更怕失去你的关心。我是个占有欲很强的家伙，很想每天每天让你粘着，你成功每几分钟出现在我脑海一次，我也没办法，所以就很想很想你咯～～现在不能随便找个理由去找你，也不能无所顾虑见你。很烦，很闷，我顶！！有你就很幸福了，还是朝往人生的目标前进。小小的休息，为了行走更遥远的路。朋友，让我歇息一回！！

心理：你是不是喜欢她？

头脑：神经病，不可能！！

心理：你是在说谎吗？

头脑：不知道！！不要问～～

心理：我要成为好好先生，

头脑：对谁的标准呢？

心理：对自己标准，好好先生第一规律 － 不要让自己在意的人受伤，可能火星人是不因该出现在地球，如果火星人的出现让你难过，那么他就因该回到火星，在远远的祝福，呵护这你。当你烦恼出现时，抬头一望，感受远处传来来得能量，因为总有一人默默陪伴着你。。你常问我，你干吗看着我笑？那是因为我每次都对自己说，做男人，拿得起，放得下，可以man， 但不可娘！看着你那可爱的脸蛋， 却给我无比的勇气对你坦白。。偷偷再告诉你一个秘密，有时真的会偷偷的想念你。。我也非常非常喜欢你，虽然可能时间不多， 但就让缘分来戳和吧！！哈哈，故事说完了，希望你幸福，快乐。我也学会了有些呵护叫放手！！晚安～～

我对朋友的友情越来越质疑，我身边的朋友到底在想什么？？人性真的那么难抓摸吗？曾经是那么好的朋友，因为妒忌，名誉，女生，你破坏了友谊之窗，牺牲了朋友，值得吗？那女生今天还不是把你抛掉，投靠更出色的男人。。。机会不是常有，把握机会才是重点。。。看回去年写的日记，我总觉得自己好傻，但毕竟人谁无过。

The day staying in Sheff, I felt so helpless with all the actors here. Is hard to differentiate who is really care of you, and who is faking in front of you. Sometime when I met some problem, even through escape is come to my mind, but I'm force to control my mind to face it. I dislike the lifestyle here, no matter how strong am I, I still need someone to accompany, the loneliness is sux!!I don't care hoe much discriminate or being isolated here, but I believe I will impress all of you with my result. I'm who I'm, be myself!!

10.10.10 what a nice day.....but this "early" morning seems like everyone was drunk...something unhappy happened again....some of them start to hug each others, some of them was quarreling...I was just keep quite sitting on the room, I saw a so call force hug happen, I was only asking myself a question-( who I'm to her, a close friend? a friend? or a stranger?)nope... nothing come to my mind...I think you have someone can lie on, rely on~~I really feel happy about it, but another way I understand myself still not able to fully let go on you, too many memory flash through my mind when i was free....and to another dude, what you wish to have, I really try my best to keep the environment well, what you like it, I always let you to have it, is that still not enough to you?? what left to me? a loneliness or moodiness ? sometimes, may be all of us should learn stand on others side to think.....

Fresher

Finally come to Sheffield ady.....but i think it take time for me to settle down here....there is no more protection from the parents, anything done have to bare with the responsible, indirectly, It's a freedom for me. First come to here, I wasn't really use to the drinking practice, and I spend quite a lot $$ to building up a comfort environment for myself....Sometime, the surrounding was so quiet, and the loneliness feeling come close. Luckily I'm able to on9, but here is late Malaysia time for 7 hours( no people chat with)....oh yea...I miss to drive the car going around to find nice food in Malaysia....at here, at least 2 hours walking a day, it really good in exercise rite??hah!!so far I'm quite loss with what I actually asking for, may be should just focus on getting a good result rather than do nothing. update soon!!

Secret!!

Today finally come out a full-stop for the stressful and busy lifestyle, but my mood doesn't feel any relieve..or may be I still couldn't settle down. Since young I was use to get what I wish to have, So this lead me turn to be stubborn and sometime did or said something...Is really sorry if it hurt u, I really doesn't mean it~~I apologizes to u here cause I really worry this will be reject...I do care every single friendship, all the "ship" is too importance for me..If the gap occurs, I would use all my strength to minimize it, If there is a crack, I would use all my time to fix it...I'm not sure will you still visit to this page, but the point is "our friendship is just like a sin graph, it always up and down, but it will never end". I really doesn't enjoy the day without your caring...no matter what I still care about u,this is hard to change!!If possible give me a hand,let fix the "ship" 2gether..XD

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