领悟

有个断了双臂的少年问：如果当年我的双臂为你做出了无限的付出，今天你还会当我是负担吗？大部分的人则回答：不会，照顾你是必须的！其实，这大部分的人都在为自己兜，建立美好的形象，不过现实是残酷的。。就算再情的人，也有可能被现实击败，到后来也是一个字-累！人的关心可能就那么的几天，几个礼拜，几年。。见仁见智|从这故事我们又领悟到了什么？

生活可以很简单，不过你必须是个简单的人。现实中又有多少个没有杂念的人？周围终有值得你关爱的人，值得你陪伴的人，把他们归一归类，间接就减少遇见败类的几率。人生短短几十年，还得好好的安培。

爱不是一切，但有行动的爱更感人|爱不能当饭吃，但却给我努力望前走毅力，未来会怎样不好说，但我希望牵着你那小手一起创造美好的未来。在这里我想对我爱的人负责任的说声：我爱你！！两年前许下的诺言-我会成为你世界的好好先生，从未有一丝的偷懒，我会是你的守侯星（粤语).

Some people with the strong vigilance might lead himself to be failure. what from the view is not necessary true, but the feeling from your heart is never goes wrong. when human are enjoying, they tend to close their eye, and fully rely on the surrounding atmosphere. Today I got poke by a bloody nail, it look very long from me to decide pull or not, probably leave there might reduce the pain, but the injury will never recover. Mentally colaspe on the peak point, what the f thing can I do to make this thing better...Gosh....come to the conclusion, I decide I'm so wrong stop others to do something make me feel bad, but I cant just close the eye and feel the love...instead of close my eye for the whole day, I prefer to close the Fbook all the time!!

Blue night!!

想你想你脑海都是你～～连续忙了几天，今天终于凑得出“休息” 时间，但眼睛却反复看着地图，脑海想象情景，心理还有股兴奋。此时桌上的电话振振响起，读了那短短的几个字，我把手上所有的东西都放下了，心情是沉闷的，失望盖过了生气，脑袋也开始放空，手子却不断打着你的名字，反的画面射却令我的心情冷酷。我真的好寂寞，工作真的能让我好过一点吗？但我真的好累，期待见到你，原来我真的非常需要你的陪伴。最后我只想跟你说声：“婷婷，我爱你！”

有酸不能言，只有写作来作乐。人心不足蛇吞象，这句话只能形容有野心的人，心魔是永远满足不了的。对我而言，完整的图是非常重要的，但往往结局不是你想象的。千方百计夺回来的小图，凭出别的图案，真是配了夫人又折兵！哑巴吃黄连---有苦说不出。我曾经人努力的抹杀别人一些让我反感的记忆，但无论我怎么洗，还是随随便便就看见了他。我明白过去毕竟是历史了，至少不要让我在你任何一个角落看到他。爱你是我的权利，呵护你是我的能力，想你是我的想象力！！我坚持的相信，美好的未来从把手牵好。

－小气鬼－

A hand make no noise

Sometime the person u like might not suitable for you. Fate is something miracle, sometime the person u quarrel with, fight with , highly possibility turns to be your partner. There is no ending for the love story. When the time you get whoever you wish, it come to the new chapter. How does the story goes is really depend how both of you manage it, we are the writer!!!Please give me some indication what to do next~~~

最后还是选着对着没有反应的部落格来哭诉。。。其实早就知道自己超多“奇怪” 的脾气，有时自己也受不了，何况是别人呐！！我怕寂寞，我怕孤单，更怕失去你的关心。我是个占有欲很强的家伙，很想每天每天让你粘着，你成功每几分钟出现在我脑海一次，我也没办法，所以就很想很想你咯～～现在不能随便找个理由去找你，也不能无所顾虑见你。很烦，很闷，我顶！！有你就很幸福了，还是朝往人生的目标前进。小小的休息，为了行走更遥远的路。朋友，让我歇息一回！！

心理：你是不是喜欢她？

头脑：神经病，不可能！！

心理：你是在说谎吗？

头脑：不知道！！不要问～～

心理：我要成为好好先生，

头脑：对谁的标准呢？

心理：对自己标准，好好先生第一规律 － 不要让自己在意的人受伤，可能火星人是不因该出现在地球，如果火星人的出现让你难过，那么他就因该回到火星，在远远的祝福，呵护这你。当你烦恼出现时，抬头一望，感受远处传来来得能量，因为总有一人默默陪伴着你。。你常问我，你干吗看着我笑？那是因为我每次都对自己说，做男人，拿得起，放得下，可以man， 但不可娘！看着你那可爱的脸蛋， 却给我无比的勇气对你坦白。。偷偷再告诉你一个秘密，有时真的会偷偷的想念你。。我也非常非常喜欢你，虽然可能时间不多， 但就让缘分来戳和吧！！哈哈，故事说完了，希望你幸福，快乐。我也学会了有些呵护叫放手！！晚安～～

我对朋友的友情越来越质疑，我身边的朋友到底在想什么？？人性真的那么难抓摸吗？曾经是那么好的朋友，因为妒忌，名誉，女生，你破坏了友谊之窗，牺牲了朋友，值得吗？那女生今天还不是把你抛掉，投靠更出色的男人。。。机会不是常有，把握机会才是重点。。。看回去年写的日记，我总觉得自己好傻，但毕竟人谁无过。

The day staying in Sheff, I felt so helpless with all the actors here. Is hard to differentiate who is really care of you, and who is faking in front of you. Sometime when I met some problem, even through escape is come to my mind, but I'm force to control my mind to face it. I dislike the lifestyle here, no matter how strong am I, I still need someone to accompany, the loneliness is sux!!I don't care hoe much discriminate or being isolated here, but I believe I will impress all of you with my result. I'm who I'm, be myself!!

10.10.10 what a nice day.....but this "early" morning seems like everyone was drunk...something unhappy happened again....some of them start to hug each others, some of them was quarreling...I was just keep quite sitting on the room, I saw a so call force hug happen, I was only asking myself a question-( who I'm to her, a close friend? a friend? or a stranger?)nope... nothing come to my mind...I think you have someone can lie on, rely on~~I really feel happy about it, but another way I understand myself still not able to fully let go on you, too many memory flash through my mind when i was free....and to another dude, what you wish to have, I really try my best to keep the environment well, what you like it, I always let you to have it, is that still not enough to you?? what left to me? a loneliness or moodiness ? sometimes, may be all of us should learn stand on others side to think.....

Fresher

Finally come to Sheffield ady.....but i think it take time for me to settle down here....there is no more protection from the parents, anything done have to bare with the responsible, indirectly, It's a freedom for me. First come to here, I wasn't really use to the drinking practice, and I spend quite a lot $$ to building up a comfort environment for myself....Sometime, the surrounding was so quiet, and the loneliness feeling come close. Luckily I'm able to on9, but here is late Malaysia time for 7 hours( no people chat with)....oh yea...I miss to drive the car going around to find nice food in Malaysia....at here, at least 2 hours walking a day, it really good in exercise rite??hah!!so far I'm quite loss with what I actually asking for, may be should just focus on getting a good result rather than do nothing. update soon!!

Secret!!

Today finally come out a full-stop for the stressful and busy lifestyle, but my mood doesn't feel any relieve..or may be I still couldn't settle down. Since young I was use to get what I wish to have, So this lead me turn to be stubborn and sometime did or said something...Is really sorry if it hurt u, I really doesn't mean it~~I apologizes to u here cause I really worry this will be reject...I do care every single friendship, all the "ship" is too importance for me..If the gap occurs, I would use all my strength to minimize it, If there is a crack, I would use all my time to fix it...I'm not sure will you still visit to this page, but the point is "our friendship is just like a sin graph, it always up and down, but it will never end". I really doesn't enjoy the day without your caring...no matter what I still care about u,this is hard to change!!If possible give me a hand,let fix the "ship" 2gether..XD

ihopeyouknow

Please stand right in front of me, Hug me, and place your ear close to my chest...Herm~~Can u hear the heart beating??There is too complicated cant describe by words, listen to the heart, feel it and You will understand it...Sumtime What u hear/see not really right, but your feeling will never wrong!!

Forget about it ~~!!something is gone then it will never come back again...."Do it now or never"-at the right time, do a right decision could change anything.Some of the "special" friendship would always follow a sin graph pattern, start from a 0 to a pick point, then it fall the max negative value and lastly back to the original value-0...Time might fix things better, but at the same time might turn worst....After 2 years time, I think it we are back to origin, I felt nothing together with you, is a sign of successful, whether will it have another cycle is really depends on fate. A nice person like you is always deserve to better guy who really appreciate you....Those who are doesn't know how to appreciate your kindness is always their loss, but never because of them hurt anyone who care of you~~!!TC.

When you know the answer, never ask why again~~this will only show how contradict you are!!Too many couple break up because having different thought...if really a Mars and Venus couple....then let go may be is the most suitable way to solve. Al lot couple has forgotten the main purpose of being together - both party feel they are comfort happy to stay their another. when a force is applied, there will be another opposite force with the same magnitude produce. Only those who follow the water flow are able to survive!!

The X Factor 2009 - Combined Effort - Auditions 3 (itv.com/xfactor)

傻瓜的故事

为了创造同病相怜的情景，一个傻瓜让自己跌倒受伤，希望自己苏醒后，可以陪伴着自己心爱的人~~但他却忽略了好景不常有，那痛的快乐只是短暂的。傻瓜慢慢的放下自己的执著，对待事物的热诚，开始以包容，接受来对抗心中对自己那不甘自甘堕落得行为。。傻瓜渐渐的付出所有，但却迟迟没有回复~~想清醒时，却终有千百个理由让他继续付出~~今天，残酷事实让他清醒，自己心爱的人在他昏迷时，已经离开~~他从来就没有出现在她的心里。。他是她心中的一粒沙，是处都是，但相反的，她是傻瓜的所有。。如果一厢情愿是傻瓜，那么玩弄他人是什么？？正在疗伤的傻瓜虽然存有一丝一丝的思念，但终于体会了“你死你贱” 的游戏规则！！

Triangle love

Have you watch twilight saga eclipse?? herm...this movie trying to reflect something happen in the reality...So if you really experience that triangle relationship in real life's, you will totally fall with this movie. thumb up!! Love can be so complicated or simple and pure. when you falling in love with a guy, but after that you feel like you are more comfort with another guy..what will u do? Bella love Edward , In fact, she more comfort with Jacob and need him more then Edward. she turns greedy and wish 2 own 2 of them. Most of the people declare that she is a slut, because of her greediness, both parties get hurt - of course especially that 1 who never get her -worst~~physically and mentally get hurt~~1 combo wiehh!!. For me, nothing is on your control....so decide what is really important to you, never try to be a fish monger...Lastly, Mr Jocob~~hero of the movie~~!!

520

我~~~可以陪你去看星星，可以握着你的手追随日出以日落的出现，简单的问候却成为我的能量！！心病终需心药医，你是我的医生，也是伤害我的凶手！对着你，心里很复杂，不是语言能解释的。你的种种切切，不知道我是真的喜欢上了， 还是习惯了占有你，你在我身边，心理便有种莫名其妙的开心。。。老实说，认识你是幸福的，爱上你，是我的失责！！爱一个人，要学会放手，因为有人比你更需要她！！最后，我已520 作为思念你的句号。

I dunno~~~

Honestly, that was pain.....this time is really hurt~~it no longer the physical pain, it is hard to cure....who will be the angel accompany to my side until i recover...NO ONE!!I wont say that is unfair or what, at least i try my best to give it a try, I can guess out the outcome that u make, but the last thing I still able to do is just not to let you feel anything bad...This time, let the men to handle it.....You are not perfect, but for me u are mine everything!!Girl....dun feel anything negative, although u always say I'm the week week boy, but I'm strong enough to protect you~~!! I hate to be the character in the story, but may be time will let me accept the fact!!!I'm always miss u..

no comment....see how does it goes!!